My freshman year in college just ended 2 weeks ago. and i want to write about my experience on here, so that i will remember. I want to be able to read back on this and realize how much i have grown and how much things have changed. my first year was amazing, interesting, hurtful, crazy, sad, happy, depress, stress….you name it, i felt it. when everything was happening, it felt overwhelming and i wish there was something that i could do to change/fix it to make it all better. however, reflecting back on the things that happened i don’t think i would want to change anything now. i have learned so much in one year than i ever thought i would. the friends i have made, the things i’ve learned and done were all priceless. i will forever cherish the experiences and people that i have once met. 

One of the things that stood out to me the most about my first year was this guy, who made such an impact in my life. negative and positive. as a promise was broken, another one was made. i broke my promise to many people of staying single my first year and really just experience the college life, when i met this boy. i will not go into too much details about what happened with this relationship because it longer matters. i have moved on, and i have learned what i needed to learn from it. from this, i learned that i am actually not ready for a relationship like i said i was. it finally clicked with me that a serious relationship needs a strong base, a friendship. obviously, i have not built a strong base with any of my relationships; therefore, none of them have been working out. which is completely fine because i’m still learning and there’s still plenty of room to grow. 

Another thing that made my college experience unforgettable is being able to share it with my amazing best friend/roommate, Myrhon. we both have gone through to much together and individually that have really made us the person we are. also, in another sense it has made our friendship much stronger and brought us closer to each other. living, sleeping, eating, spending time, and doing almost everything together with this girl have made me realize things about her that i never knew. recently, things have been happening in her life and it has really made me realize how strong of a person she is. and also how weak she can be when she can no longer hold it together anymore. it really hurts to see her sad because is a side of her that i don’t see very often. but i’m glad i did because it has taught me to be just a little bit stronger so that i could be there for her. 

The things i learned from my environment and the people around me have taught me so much……but these things have made me realized things for myself and i have been trying to figure out as well. i was given the opportunity to participate in a fashion show at my school, and it was amazing! it has always been a dream to be able to walk down the runway and act like a model for a little bit. the many things that did happen, also taught me a lot about myself when it comes to boys….and relationships. i have not quite figured this out for myself yet………….what i want, need, or simply like. to be continued………

So this concludes my first year experience. of course, a lot more happened that what was written here but they are all things that one must experience to know. i want you to get out there and live/enjoy/experience your college life. it will be the best thing you could do for yourself. and don’t be afraid to make mistakes, get hurt, hurt someone as long as you learn something from it each time. life is like a blank sheet of paper, and it’s up to you to write the story. so go out there, make a difference, and write your life journey down along the way. you’ll be glad you did 20, 30, 40, even 50 years from now. 

good luck to everyone entering college soon, and best wishes to you all. :)

I want to take this time out to give thanks to those people that have been in my life for the past 18 years. You guys have all made me the person I am today. I’m very thankful to have such an amazing family, a supporting group of friends, and most importantly GOD. There have been times in my life when I was caught up in other things, and was disconnected with who I really am. However, I will try my best in 2012 to fix those mistakes and be a better person for those people around me; but especially, God and myself. I must admit that there were things that happened in the past that I wish didn’t happen, but when it really comes down to it; I am actually very thankful for everything because everything happened for a reason and those reasons have brought me to where I am today. The past year have been kinda rough for me: the lost of my grandpa 10 days before my 18 birthday, starting college, and of course boys. However, I would like 2012 to be the start of bettering my relationship with God and finding myself. Also, I want to be able to learn to appreciate everything more and be thankful for everyday. I hope that I continue to grow positively as an individual and discover myself along the way. I am excited to see what 2012 will bring. :)